I am currently in a in-between place. I know that something is coming- change is on the horizon. In some ways I know what this change will look like, and some of it is good. But there are things still hidden in darkness, and this is a tiring and frustrating place to be. I am a planner, I want to know what is coming and how I can be prepared for it- mentally, financially, emotionally.
I am currently in the interview process for a new position at my church. If I am not hired does this mean that I am not good enough? Yes, to an extent that is true. It has to be, right? In reference to this job I keep using the term “In the running” which is exactly right. I feel like I am running so hard i see opponents creeping up beside me, passing me by with their qualifications and experience, but then i look behind me and see the ones that don’t have a chance and i have left them in the dust, which is awesome. This process has gone on for about 4 weeks now. 4 weeks! The end is now in sight- only 2 more weeks and there should be a decision made (hopefully). There better be. I am exhausted and need to know the outcome. good or bad. promoted or not. rejected or accepted. i need to know.
Who among you fears the Lord
and obeys his servant?
If you are walking in darkness,
without a ray of light,
trust in the Lord
and rely on your God.
11 But watch out, you who live in your own light
and warm yourselves by your own fires.
This is the reward you will receive from me:
You will soon fall down in great torment.